a long(er) one.

happy freaking late new year.
& in the spirit of keeping things deliciously outdated, here:



this coming year will be the last i can place under my belt of 'teenage trauma' & adulthood looks as appealing as a hot flash.

i know that i've done a lot of growing up in recent years - i've realised that the world does not revolve around romance & the approval of others, & that self-worth is all about a shift in perception. as much as i've thickened my skin since my days of awkward poise & i've learned to step on criticism in my stride, things don't exist in totalities. you can't always face things with stoicism & indifference - & someday somewhere, you're the camel & that one piece of straw will break your back.

dad often reminds me to forget haters & not to respond to them, but if there's anything that blows my fuse, it's cracks about my race & judgements on my personality - one of which i can do nothing about & the other of which i have done everything to preen.

I THINK I WILL TAKE MY THOUGHTS ELSEWHERE BEFORE THIS POST BECOMES UGLIER THAN MY POST-WAKE-UP FACE.

6 comments:

  1. You are gorgeous, take care of your self

     
  2. people are just jealous of us b/c it's the smart ones like us that will someday rule the world.
    i hope someone finds this comment and uses it completely out of context and tells people what a jerk i am. lol.
    <3

     
  3. Dude, those are totally 2003 glasses. Did you think you could fool me?

    Anyway, I dig the blog. Just realized it existed. Glad to hear that you're looking forward to personal growth in the new year. Most are dragged into change kicking and screaming. You have an unguarded acceptance of reality's blemishes.

     
  4. You are one hell of an intelligent girl. All good advice in that post.

     
  5. I like this blog better because I can look at you more! Private lj posts = LAME

    hahaha

    comment me on my blog if I can link to this one

    mmmmk?

    mmmmk.

     
  6. Happy new year babyfreakingporridge. I stumbled on one of your videos the other day; you're fun...and rather lovely. Looking forward to more of your fun...and loveliness.